Taking tuitions...

Ever since i started engineering in 2005, ive felt like a complete idiot... Iv gone from topper to flopper... Though i knew that engineering is not something i would find interest in, i still selected it thinking i would manage it somehow, afterall the pay packets are high and there is job security!! Wrong decision! Or should i say, decision for all the wrong reasons! But it didn't take me much time to realise what a big fool id been... Clearly, when you dont like something, u r gonna try to avoid it! Thats exaclty what i did for the first year... It took me that much time to realise that i was only ruining my career this way and that engineering is what i have to do whether i like it or lump it!! So slowly iam working hard at improving though my dilly-dallying has caused sufficient harm... Obviously my dislike had showed up on my marks as well though not causing any irreparable damage. So bottomline. since i came to engineering, Ive felt like the biggest fool on earth!!!
My rescue from this feeling came in the form of taking tuitions for maths.. Taking these tuitions reinstated my faith in my belief that i wasn't a very bad student. I had a brain n wasn't a dimwit as id started thinking i was. I started feeling productive again and it gave me a sense of fulfillment.. Its true, that when god closes one door, he opens ten others for us... N i have to say, that my faith in god and these tuitions have played a major role in not letting me give up on myself because of engineering.....